sad poem to remember?

6 orang? damn. gue pasti berpikiran satunya gue. dan.. huff. everyone told me it won't happen to me but who knows the future? apa gue harus 'liat' lagi di mimpi? mnurut gue itu bukan hak gue buat ngeliat itu. so just surrender to God. whatever He does to me, is the best for my life. tapi gue ga siap cuy!
okeh. gue baru pulang skul dan gue langsung buka smua. msn, twitter, plurk, fb dan smua statusnya sangat amat suram buat dibaca.

' tryin to not cryin '
' all done. i've tried my best '
' whatever You wanna do to me. whatever. just surrender '
' i hate waiting so long. 12 days? '
' hate this feeling '
' drowning into pessimistic '

yeah mungkin cuman kalimat" simple. tapi... argh. itu berat banget loh buat nulisnya. dan sdikit pengakuan menjijikan dari gue. pulang kan jalan kaki. sambil mo nangis, dan sampe skarang ini masih keg waduk bentar lagi mo jatoh. eeerrrgh really hate this situation!

tadi di jalan gue mikir".. dan dapetlah kalimat" ini..

walking alone
don't know what to do soon
just keep tryin to hold this tears
but i can't stop the tears drop

i surrender, God
whatever you wanna do, just do it
i'm here, braving my heart
to hear, to see what you'll do

i know you always give me the best
even it hurts..
even it embrassing..
it'll be the lesson
to make myself better..

ya. kuatkan hatimu.. jernihkan pikiranmu.. istirahatlah yang cukup.. lupakan itu smua..
erghh!!!!!!!!!!!!!